you are imagining that the hole inside of you can be filled by something external. That leaving will fix something. It will give you perspective, but will not fill you. Thats what I think, because that's what happened when I left. And now I am back here in this place because this is home for me. My family is here, my support. What more do I need?
Just love and trust and all the things I can find moving around.
You have never become self sufficient. You have never been enough on your own and if you don't come to the point where nothing around you matters and everything around you is awesome because it is then you are fucked man. its all a disaster and only you can be comfortable with what is happening.
we die. this life ends. I don't want to spend it with anyone else anymore. I don't want to find new people I like the ones I have. I can't even see the people I have found.
My idea is for you to come here and be unhappy maybe for 3 years with me. I'll do everything I can, put all my passion into you till our daughter goes to school then you can go to school as well and leave me for some student because nothing is gonna satisfy you here with me but our baby will be more secure and our bills will be paid.
I love you more than I love anything else in my life because I know and trust you. I don't need anything else because you are 100% THE BEST lay and listener everywhere